Completely missed going out for my friends birthday which sucked majorly but work is really shitty but as I was in fact ready to go out but I had no idea where my friends were I decided to go to town! I had the WORST lift there ever of somebody that I work with. But yeah considering I didn’t start drinking until 12, I got way too drunk. What is my life. Oh and I spend shit loads. Whyyyyyy.

So despite eating hardly anything/a little healthier and exercising I’ve put on weight. Where are these miraculous results that occur straight away!? Where is my skinny body!?

Having control makes me happy, but not like excessively, just feeling like I don’t care
Okay

I’m not exactly the most simple person and I do admit that I’m really irrational and contrary but when somebody makes judgements that are so far from the truth I’m going to get pissed off. I swear this is why there’s only been one person I thought understood why I do the shitty things that wasn’t any of the girls. And he’s messed up. Woop woop.

My dad has eaten the box of roses that Rhod got me so I had a major tantrum.

Stupid hormones!